Two Spare Bedrooms

31 year-old woman with 0 kids, 1 husband, and 2 spare bedrooms. My journey through infertility, IVF, miscarriage, and the ultimate goal of motherhood. Scratch that - my marriage is a casualty of infertility.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

I'm Still Here

Sorry I haven't posted for so long! My life has been crazy and has changed so much. I started working again on May 16 - I am the Assistant Branch Manager of an extremely busy bank branch. It is one crisis after another, and during the first week I was working 11 hour days. I was ready to quit after the third day, but realized I had to give it more time. I am used to it by now, and hopefully things will calm down. The branch is in an extremely affluent area, and celebrities are frequently in the shopping center it is located in. So it has been fun hearing about who is arriving each day in their stretch limos to shop, get their hair done, or eat. Last week the most famous radio personality (don't want to say his name because then I will get more hits than I want to this blog) was having lunch with his daughter while his limo driver waited for him. Didn't get to see him though.

I also have been seeing someone, and am very happy. I have known him all my life as my best friend's brother, and he has always had a crush on me. So I guess the timing was finally right for us to get together, and it seems to be working. We get along great, and have so much in common since we grew up together. We will see what happens. Other than that, not too much has changed. I still have not found my own place to live, and hardly even have the time to look. If I have to stay with my parents for a while it wouldn't be the worst thing. I have to say I didn't realize how miserable I really was a few months ago until I got out of the situation. I feel like myself again. Unfortunately, my ex and I are not friendly at all. The divorce will hopefully be final in a few months, and I can officially move on with my life. If I don't get caught up in the fact that I am 32, I can actually be OK with the fact that I don't have kids yet. I will admit, it does concern me when I think about it. But I am just trying to enjoy life and not get caught up with this stuff.

5 Comments:

  • At 6:35 PM, Blogger Nico said…

    Yay! Lisa, I'm so happy for you. It sounds like you're in a so much better place. And your boy sounds like a good find:-)

     
  • At 9:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Sounds like you are doing an excellent job picking up the pieces. Good for you! It shows that you have a lot of inner strength. I am glad that you have once again "found" your sense of self.

     
  • At 12:09 AM, Blogger Rhea said…

    Hello Lisa!

    I found your blog for the first time tonight and I read the entire thing. First, let me tell you how sorry I am that you had to put up with such drama, pain and heartbreak. My marriage also became a casualty of infertility. Back in February, my husband thought he may love someone else too (an ex-girlfriend) and I was so hurt that someone else could even turn his head. This happened 1 month after we found out about his 0% morphology and varicocele's. So, reading your blog has been almost like mine, but I haven't gotten to the point of any ART yet. We had been trying for a year when we found out about everything that was wrong and then that's when everything went downhill. We are starting to ttc again in August. I'm glad that you are getting everything back together. I felt just like you did throught your blog. If only he didn't have a varicocele, if only we got pregnant quickly, then things would have been great. But now I realize that there were other things that were going on in our relationship that also needed to be repaired. You and your husband had the Al-anon issues, where my husband and I were having other issues as well. And we also have 2 spare bedrooms as well.

    I'll continue to read your blog and please feel free to read mine.

    Hugs,

    Crystal
    www.rblues.blogspot.com

     
  • At 4:04 AM, Blogger Eggs Akimbo said…

    Like the previous comment, I have read your blog with great interest. I sometimes wonder whether my marriage is going to survive trying for a baby. I've added you to my blog list.

     
  • At 9:51 PM, Blogger Nico said…

    Hey Lisa!

    How are things going? Thinking of you, and hope all is well!

     

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